I'm leaving for up north tomorrow morning.
And what? You guessed it, I'm freakin anxious/excited/nervous. At least I'm not freaking out as bad as I was last night. Though I'll probably get to that level again tonight.
Sigh....

I'm so messed up in my head right now. I don't mean mental illness messed up, but...I don't know.
Thank God, I'm leaving tomorrow though. It'll be good for me. And for everyone else around me. I'm not kidding, since last Thursday I've been acting...well I haven't been myself.
It seems I can't let go of this school year. But I'm wondering whether it's way the year was or if it's because of someone.
All I know is I was not like this last summer.
I blame an attachment to someone. ...Well in way, two people. But mostly the first. Any guesses on who that might be? -_-
I feel bad for Katia, seeing how she had to deal with me all week, being a pathetic "emu" child.
Next year will come up faster than the last...

Seriously, when I come back on the 7th of next month, I'll want it to be August. It can be the first day of August, and I'll be happy.
I can't think of anything exciting for the summer except for Maine and A&B's new CD (now Aug. 4th...).
I'll think of something when I get back. Though I know for a fact that I'd like to hang out with my friends...and stay away from my house as much as possible.

Because I'm going to be up north, all the requests and art trades I said I'll do, won't be finished till I get back.
But don't worry, they will be done.

The other night when I was at Katia's, we all had dreams about school. ...It was creepy. The only thing different about mine was it had nothing to do with lockers, oh, and that mine was taking place in the future.
And then last night I had another strange school-based dream...that became theater-based:
I'm going to skip to the strange parts.
We (as in my friends & random people actually in theater class) had to put on a performance of random scenes from The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe (even though it honestly had nothing to do with it) so Ricky (yes, Tenshi's boyfriend) could get some type of scholarship. So there were practicing, (for some reason I was a white parrot at one point) and then we had to perform. Well we performed the first half with some freaky mistakes and improv and people getting "shot" and people falling off bleachers driven by a truck...that actually drove off stage and outside. Anyway, during a seriously long intermission, we all played a strange game. That involved capturing me. Yeah, I avoided EVERYONE (and damn there was a lot of people after me, and the auditorium kept altering every second). So the game was never won. I went out for a stroll outside...(one of those fade outs then fade ins to emphasize that an amount of time was passed happened)...I guess I met up with Letter during the time skip and we were having a lovely conversation. God knows what it exactly was about. Apparently I was flirting or something, and then I slipped out, "You're so cute, I want to hug you." He wasn't fazed by this 'cause he then said, "Then why don't you." So I hugged him. Then he kissed me....then that turned into a little make out session. We went back inside the auditorium to see if the never-ending intermission actually ended. (Lolz, the front door of the audtiorium was my house's front door) The intermission was still not over. So we decided to hide somewhere so we could be alone ('cause the place was still crawling with people) We went backstage in hopes of a "hiding spot". (Backstage looked nothing like what it is in reality) We found Tenshi, Katia, Ricky in a cool cape, and some of my other friends sitting underneath a broken tent. Tenshi looked at me, while sitting like a gangster, said "Cereal." I just walked away from the gathering to find Letter since he had run off somewhere. I found him in the middle of staircase out of everyone else's sight. ...We were about to kiss again until a flood of random theater kids came out of nowhere. Me and Letter decided to split up to find a good hiding spot. Well, no matter where I looked, I couldn't find one. Oddly enough, everywhere I looked, Alexis was there. O.o
....Then my mom came home from the gym, slammed the door, and woke me up with the noise.
In that dream, Ricky was in that cape the whole freakin time. It was weird. I think at one point he had a Russian hat. >>
The dream was weirder than I made it sound. Because of the performance I didn't want to explain.


I already miss everyone. Especially the you-may-know-who-s.

....I don't want to continue packing. ):< It should pack itself.
Where's Dufort when you need him. He could ferret my suitcase in packing itself. (lolz ferret, Dufort, inside joke)

Bye....
Till July 7th.

~Akki/Lost/Shard

"Tear,
Tear off your skin,
What's there within?"

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